Just finished talking to jiamin on the phone for like almost 2 and a half hours and we didnt realise it was 2am when we hung up.hahaha we were like gushing madly about our own crushes and its soo funny how jiamin has such conflicting emotions when she pretends that she will think that guy is not worth thinking about and prob 30 seconds later she will wonder why he didnt reply her msg.SIGH.Girls are such unfathomable creatures.Yes me included.hahaha We were saying why people would feel so tortured by matters of the heart(particularly romantic relationships) and we concluded that because everybody just emphasized so much about it!Why dont we get ourselves all upset and melancholy when we realise we actually dont really click as much with our parents as when we were kids?(But we actually can get so depressed over the souring of a romantic relationship)Now that we are all grown up and not talking as much to our parents,we dont seem to be brooding over it all day and losing sleep and appetite over it.Its our choice afterall isnt it.We dont seem to be as upset when we quarrell with our siblings as compared to when we have a fight with spouses or partners right.We just chose to make romantic relationships a core in our lives so much so that our lives seem to evolve around it.Its quite sad why the relationship between parents and siblings and you doesnt make up a large part of your life as much as romantic relationships generally.



Been having much fun during work these days.Did i say it before?haha But im gonna say it again that im SOO glad i left my previous job waitressing at the cafe.At least i felt that im learning useful stuff at my current job as compared to the waitressing job.At least i learn much more about people, ugly office politics and the ugly people behind them and how to handle people!I felt that everyone has something i can learn from because there are really all sorts of people out there.From all kinds of educational backgrd and environment we were exposed to,we can have such contrasting views on subjects and yet everyone makes sense with their point of view.Its so puzzling and interesting at the same time.So I realise....make more friends, people!hahaha It will go you good anyhow.But the cafe's supervisor seemed to be quite upset with me as he thinks that i have pung sehed him.I told him since february that i will be leaving and i actually stayed all the way through march because hes really very nice to me so i wanted to stay abit longer to help him through as he said its difficult to find a part timer to replace me. I thought he would understand that i cant be working for him for long and i will have to leave someday and i had already given him prior notice for like a whole month at least.Apparently,he felt very disappointed with me when i cant help him out on days that he wanted me to(after i quit and am working at fossil already).What does he expect?That i will still return and help him anytime he wants?I thought its quite clear that i quit already so he should know that he should not bank on me to help him out often anymore.But he doesnt get the idea and gets upset with me.I was really convinced hes a really nice and understanding guy so i thought he will just let me go when i wanted to.However,the last week i was in earshot,he kept persuading me to stay and he doesnt seem to listen to my reason about how im not happy there so whats the pt of making myself miserable?Look whos selfish and cares more about covering his ass instead of whether his worker is happy and satisfied working there.Ya..i think i still considered him as a friend because he really treated me quite well when i was working there and thats probably why i am upset over this matter too.To think i was really protective of him when jiamin was like against him last time.


Being totally random,have you wondered whether your mum or dad might be considered by their friends as a backstabber,hyprocrite or even is a hated person among their colleagues and might actually have no real friends at all?I mean all those disgusting people might actually meet other disgusting people and have kids right?I mean your mum and dad will be really sweet and nice to you but you never know what they might do to other people right.Its such a scary thought because theres this gross manager at my workplace whos a mother of 2 and shes such a hyprocrite who bully her employees and suck up to her superior while sabotaging relationships and sow discord along the way among other evil stuff she does.Bad people do have their retribution because she doesnt have friends AT ALL and i find that very sad.But thats not the pt!The pt is shes a mother of 2!I really hope she has that last bit of kindness in her and not taint her kids' pure and innocent hearts with any evil thoughts.Its really not their fault to be her children so its really sad the environment you are born into determines what kind of person you will be and it will affect you so much when you grow up.


I feel so liberated(sort of).Its not that i was always feel grumpy or were totally depressed when i was working at the cafe but its just that somehow the job sucks life out of me since i work 12 hours shift at the cafe ALONE quite often.Its like alot of postive energy was sucked away in that job.I didnt felt like i am a happy girl everyday but im glad to say i feel like a happy girl everyday now,just like in school,because now i cherish this job which brought me many reasons to be happy :)Irate customers wont upset my day because they will only make me face the normal customers with a wider smile :D I will not mind what kind of attitude the unreasonable customers give me because only then i will realise there are customers out there who are totally understanding of our job and makes me hopeful with each customer i serve because i know there will surely be one who will smile back at me too.Greet everyday,everyone,everything in your life with a smile and it will make you feel that life is much more beautiful :)

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