Saturday, August 12, 2006
Jiamin n i have great plans!
WE r gg to celebrate our b days tgt on MY b day.hahaha becuz she cant celebrate hers anw since its during the exam.So we r having a joint celebration with bryan! :) Im so excited i know tat day will b such an awesome day.My last paper for mid yrs end on my b day!lucky me.heh.
Ran 8 rds ytd n im quite proud of my lil achievement.haha Just having the determination to really get my flabby legs down the tracks to run is a great achievment already.I can feel flab all over me n tats y i decided to go for a run(finally).Running is actually quite a therapeutic thing to do,for me.haha I actually enjoyed the run ytd...funny huh.Have to get myself to run at least once a wk...i dun wan to die of heart attack anytime.At the rate im eating n the fat oily things im gorging myself with,i really need some exercise.
Am really worried for my mum.Shes not eating much these days n when i went out to buy dinner just now she din wan anything.Shes even eating lesser than me when im 7yrs old!I am like the biggest eater in my family now as my dad's metabolic rate declines n i know hes pretty freaked out by my appetite too.Im the only one at the table who wants a 2nd bowl of rice.Whatever happened to me!?
The other day i was thinking how wld it b like in 16 yrs time...when ryan grows up.He wld b like my age.By then,wld he still rmb how much my mum doted on him when he was young?As far as i know,mum is gonna take care of him until hes 3 or 4yrs old, then he will b put in the childcare centre.Before ryan was born,my sis has nv really been very close to the family.I felt quite sad a few yrs back when i realised that i seemed to have lost a sister becuz she seems more like this distant relative that i see once in a while.So i was wondering,wld she still be bringing ryan back oftenly to visit my mum aft he goes to childcare?I really dun wan the day when ryan grows up n think his old grandma is some irritating old fart, to come.That wld be so hurting to my mum,who wipes his ass,gets up at 3am just to get him water n make sure the room is not toot stuffy for him to slp,who chase him ard the hse just to feed him a spoonful of porridge(my mum is old enuff n still has to move so much just for tat brat),who got pinched at the face n got slapped by that stupid small boy who is so naughty.I mean my mum is so old already n she is still sleeping lesser hrs than me and gets bullied by a mere 1 yr plus baby.I just wan to see her happy at the end of the day,when ryan is all grown up n hopefully adores his grandma as much as she adores him.
Watched click.It was hilarious.But touching too.I cried at both the part when adam sandler went back to the time when he last saw his father and the part when adam sandler died.The topic of kinship always touches me the most.Like how i cried agn when i watched the Ghost Whisperer ytd.Watching scenes where the lead characters lose their family members always get me very upset becuz i know such thing is gonna happen to me one day.But i just dread the coming of it.My mum always talk abt it in a light-hearted tone and i just hate her mentioning it.Everytime i talk abt something that goes,:"10 yrs later...blah blah.." then she will always reply:"By then, i will be six feet under grd already la,haha." I know shes joking but everytime she mention it, it just makes me feel sad. :(
Oh my supper's here!i shall stop thinking abt such sad depressing life-comes-to-an-end stuff.haha off to eat!
eat eat eat tats what life is for--words of a pig.
